Life can be challenging for all of us.
Any mom can tell you that.
At the end of each the day, I feel differently depending on how the day goes.
Sometimes I just fall into bed brain dead and exhausted...because I didn't sleep the night before thinking of everything I had to do today.
Sometimes I fall into bed making resolutions... I will make my life more balanced, I will do more for my children, I will be more productive at work.
Sometimes I fall into bed wondering...did I do enough today for my children. Are they going to grow up to be good people?
Sometimes I fall into bed frustrated...because I've stayed up late working on my son's project that is due the next day.
Sometimes I fall into bed feeling like a bad mother... because I've yelled at my child for not getting it all together and being organized and getting all of their school work done on time and then they cried.
Sometimes I fall into bed hoping that tomorrow will be a better day, that I'll have more patience, that I'll be a better mom.
Yesterday, the day after I had yelled at Hayden for not being organized with homework....after wondering if I was being a good mom, after resolving to do more for my children, Hayden came over to me and laid his head in my lap and said three little words that rocked my world.
"I adore you."
Nothing could have made me fell more complete. The flood of emotions over how much I love this kid who faces so many challenges every day was so intense.
Hi Megan! I've got a tear in my eye when I read this. Kids can really make you cry and smile at the same time. Can't believe Hayden is that big now! I wish you and your family a happy new year! With love Anneli in Sweden.
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