I am...

I am

I am a woman

I am a daughter, a sister, a wife

Most of all I am a mother

I am a mother who daily tries to figure out how to do it right

How to do it equal

How to instill values in my children

That make sense to them

That encourages them to give back

That teaches them to help it feel better, even when its not

I have a secret to share

It's hard

It's hard to have a child with special needs

I cry a lot

I smile a lot

I say I'm doing fine when I'm not

The littlest things make me sad

The littlest things make me happy

I want to change the world

Change the life of my Hayden

Give him the things he wants so badly but I can not give

I want him to be able to stand tall

Walk on his own

Breath deeply and fill his lungs with air

Raise his hands over his head

Get himself dressed

Tie his own shoes

Dance with a girl

But most of all

I want to grant him his wish

Of being able to do things on his own

By himself

With his friends

Just to hang out with out an adult watching closely

I want him to be free

That is my greatest wish

My love for him is so fierce, it hurts sometimes

My Elsa is strong

She has been through more than any 9 year old should

She is my light, my joy

She exudes happy, mischievous energy

She makes me laugh

And reminds me to be a girl

That life is normal

She is my confidant and legacy

I am beyond proud that she is my daughter

Hayden and Elsa are me

And I love them